Well, I just wanted to write a bit about my past month or so. It has been filled with a lot of ups and downs, and a lot of emotions if Im honest.
I have took a step back from a lot of things, and looked at my life from a different perspective, and come to realise, that trust is becoming very hard to find in people. Trust and honesty go hand in hand in friendship, and relationships. without both, it wont work in my opinion.
Both these are needed for people to enjoy life, and each other.
I have been let down massively, and hurt by someone who I thought would never do that, and its made me realise that no matter how old you are, what your circumstances are, people can still make you look like a fool, and really mess with your head and heart.
I was always under the impression that the older you became, the more life experiences you had, and the more respect, honesty and trust you should have in people. I was wrong, and proved that even people older then me can treat you extremely badly, and have zero care for your feelings.
This has made thing very difficult for me in many ways. How can someone come into your life, make you feel so happy, show you a side to them which makes you feel comfortable, and then... let it all go? I cant understand how over night someone can change their mind and forget anything ever happened.
The other thing is, how can I move on from this. What have i learnt, and how will this all affect my future. Well, I can safely say that all my feelings and emotions are gonna be hidden away behind a massive wall from now on! That goes without saying. I will not allow anyone past that wall until I can reach a certain level of trust with them.
I'm seriously sick of being treated like an idiot, and I always come out with the messed up feelings!
Is happiness seriously that hard to find?
I have took a step back from a lot of things, and looked at my life from a different perspective, and come to realise, that trust is becoming very hard to find in people. Trust and honesty go hand in hand in friendship, and relationships. without both, it wont work in my opinion.
Both these are needed for people to enjoy life, and each other.
I have been let down massively, and hurt by someone who I thought would never do that, and its made me realise that no matter how old you are, what your circumstances are, people can still make you look like a fool, and really mess with your head and heart.
I was always under the impression that the older you became, the more life experiences you had, and the more respect, honesty and trust you should have in people. I was wrong, and proved that even people older then me can treat you extremely badly, and have zero care for your feelings.
This has made thing very difficult for me in many ways. How can someone come into your life, make you feel so happy, show you a side to them which makes you feel comfortable, and then... let it all go? I cant understand how over night someone can change their mind and forget anything ever happened.
The other thing is, how can I move on from this. What have i learnt, and how will this all affect my future. Well, I can safely say that all my feelings and emotions are gonna be hidden away behind a massive wall from now on! That goes without saying. I will not allow anyone past that wall until I can reach a certain level of trust with them.
I'm seriously sick of being treated like an idiot, and I always come out with the messed up feelings!
Is happiness seriously that hard to find?
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